Saturday, September 16

little survey

1. You and Jesus go out to dinner - who pays?
we go Dutch

2. You suddenly have to flee the country and adopt an alias; who is it?
Luxe Ferranti

3. Pick one state in the U.S. to get rid of permanently.
montana, because yes. the most useless state of all

4. You wake up as the opposite gender - what's the one thing you want to try?
hitting on a woman

5. Luke Skywalker or Han Solo?
Han Solo = sexy. Luke Skywalker = pussy. end of story.

no 6?


7. Top three celebrities you want to do?
don't want to fuck them but think they're sexy: Robert Downey Jr., Edward Burns, and um, Jeremy Piven

8. What's an automatic deal breaker in a potential significant other?
stupidity

9. What is the last movie you saw that actually scared you?
no idea

10. Stupidest thing you've ever said out loud?
dunno

11. You're sentenced to death and its the morning of your execution what's your last meal?
massive portions of spaghetti, meatballs, garlic bread, soda and chocolate cake for dessert.

12. What's something that you've done that most people haven't?
been to Cuba

12. What's something that most people do that you've never done?
stayed at one job for more than 6 mos.
.
13. Before you die you want to go to...?
Europe

14. Something you'd really like to do but probably wont ever be able to do?
why wouldn't I be able to?

15. A wild animal you'd like to have as a pet?
a fox

16. A drug you'll never try?
Crack.

17. If you were an animal what would you be?
a horse

18. If you had to marry someone you knew at the age of 12 who would it be?
oh god, no one

19. What's something most people don't know about you?
I cried at the end of Click!

20. First celebrity crush?
Ben Affleck (how the mighty have fallen!)

21. What's a weapon to suit your personality, habits and abilities?
I think I'd be a good boxer

23. Favorite breakfast bread style (pancakes, waffles, toast etc...)?
pancakes

24. Favorite parody movie?
no

25. Worst way to die?
burning to death

26. Grossest injury you've ever seen?
not in real life, but on one of those learning Channel shows there was this woman whose leg came out of its sock at the hip. It took 3 or 4 orderlies to pop it back in and she was screaming the whole time. finally the got it in but fractured the socket.

27. The worst injury you've ever had?
about 6 months ago, cracked my tailbone while attempting to skate

28. Favorite thing about Thanksgiving?
being with family and eating too much

29. Sport you hate the most?
hockey, wtf

30. What city in the U.S. do you want to visit?
New Orleans

31. What's something you think would be sweet to know everything about?
Everything.

32. Favorite Actor/Actress?
Tom Hanks, Robert DeNiro

33. What's one word you absolutely detest?
subordinate

34. What makes an awesome party?
awesome people

35. What's your material obsession?
books, shoes

36. What's something most would consider an insult but you enjoy having said about you?
that I'm stubborn

37. Favorite kind of dog?
supermutts

38. Favorite carnival food (everyone has one)?
popcorn

39. Morning or night person?
Night.

40. Worst drunken habit?
I'm a good drunk

41. Weirdest eBay purchase?
gold skates that helped me bust my tailbone

42. Favorite food to eat when you're wasted?
I don't think I've ever eaten while drinking

43. Its Saturday at 3am where are you?
in bed with my baby, watching a movie or sleeping

44. Who's your favorite friend to go out with?
probably my baby

45. Worst job you've ever had?
Victoria's Secret.

46. What's something your friends make fun of you for?
being domesticated

47. Favorite cereal?
frosted flakes

48. Book you could read repeatedly?
The Time Traveller's Wife

49. What's the meanest thing you've ever done?
When I was little I like to lie to my brother about everything. The poor kid could never get an honest answer. I always had these fantastical stories for him.

Labels:

Sunday, September 10

*sigh*

I'm exhausted.
I spent today with my dad and it was so surreal and intense day.
It was strange for him to be in my mom's house, sitting, making us laugh, eating at our table. For so long it's been us and then, separated, him. For us to be together...god, I can't even think about it. It was just weird.
He reminded me just how much I love him. Even though, I have tried to deny it.
I caught him just looking at me a few times and there was disbelief in his face. Maybe because I haven't been closer to 20 feet away from him in years. Maybe b/c I'm about to turn 21 and he's thinking of when I was born and things were okay between us all.

I was struck by how small he is. I remembered him taller, stronger, and straighter. I saw him and I got a lump in my throat. He's much much smaller than Franky. I felt so bad. I guess in my imagination he's been this giant villain of my life. And today, I saw, wow, this is someone who loves me but doesn't know any better. Today he was just a man who made a lot of mistakes, not someone to hang all of my issues on.

Saturday, September 9

A Good Omen?

Last night, I had the first nice dream that I've had in long time.

I dreamt that Reynier proposed to me. He was on the phone with Tristan asking him how he should surprise me. I walked up just then and heard him. When he saw that I had heard he pulled me close. I asked him, surprised, "You want to marry me?" He said he did. He told me he wanted to be with me for always.

This might be the best dream I've ever had (well, the one where the devil gave me magic powers was pretty awesome).

I was a little disappointed when I woke up and saw that it was only a dream.